Don’t know from where this thought came,
It may be shit, it may be lame,
This is my story of disgrace and shame.Lost my love, lost my job,
Became the part of ordinary mob,
Life is now piercing me like a pin,
Realizing now the shit I am in.This nomadic life and home no more,
The only place of solace is the office floor,
This bone chilling cold is getting me crucified,
The green blanket, my only hope to survive.
Tiredness and exhaustion filled to my core,
Morning nine to six, then night eight to four,
Can even remember seeing the setting sun,
Neither the last time had I had fun.
Can’t even imagine what happened, why I am so,
Lean, thin, weak and blood pressure so low,
Life is now on the edge,
As thin as walking on a knife wedge.
No soothing words, no one to utter,
Life in pieces, life in clutter,
I am lonely, I have none,
Family unhappy after mother’s gone.
You are my faith, love you dad,
But situations are driving me mad,
I am fu*ked up, no options other,
I can’t anymore play the role of mother.
Infosys gone and shallow is my hope,
I don’t know how the fu*k do I cope,
Emotions are drying and I am giving a damn fu*k,
In the middle of life, I am just stuck…
You just can’t imagine what’s cooking inside this evil brain. There’s a lot going on. Sometimes it is filled with joy to the core. Sometimes it’s so upset that it tries to bleed. Sometimes it’s filled with innocence of a child. Sometimes it’s filled with sadistic views and enough negativity. I still wonder that it’s the same brain that does all the mischief. It’s just wants to play the magic and the resultant is, perceiving the world of insanity with a viewpoint which no one has yet seen or thought of.
Sometimes I feel like that there’s no end
To this overwhelming insanity
Sometimes I feel like that there’s no time
To enjoy this blissful reality
So coming again
To strike the main
To tell you stories lame
From rags to fame
The desires to claim
To reignite the flame
Whether its summer or the rain
Have a peep inside my brain
Come and have a coffee with me
I will show you the world, the way I see
Outstanding views and ideas cluttered
Broken hopes and dreams shattered
So break the innocence
Have little patience
Burn the incense
Strike the essence
Open your sixth sense
Break away the fence
Whether it’s static or the rumbling train
Have a peep inside my brain.
Sweeter than sugar and intoxicating as the wine.
Then came the big turbulence and the storm,
I was forced to behave beyond the norm.
I was a dead form,
A decaying worm,
A nasty germ,
Felt like a wasted sperm.The will to go forward was unstable and in a sway,
She fu*ked my mind and ate it away.
I was not firm,
Not on my term,
Had to confirm,
Whether I was a wasted sperm.The night was scary, it was pitch dark,
You fed my mind with worthless crap.
I had to affirm,
This prison term,
Had to stand firm,
To prevent myself from being a wasted sperm.
Of late, I have discovered that conscience always exists. Even in the darkest hours, worst fears and time we commit the sin, there is always an inner voice, striving hard to guide you. Its up to you, your choice to listen to it or go with the flow. I am always on the safer side whenever I listen to it. Ask yourselves, “Are you stable?” Is your mind constantly at war? Well mine too, but I keep cool. This is my Stability.
I walked through the cold mist,
Determined will and strong fist,
I behold the old strong tree unshaken,
I see the ruins and the relics forsaken,
Where I stand today, I stand firm,
Passion in my eyes and blood so warm,
Left away tears and withered away insanity,
Never yielded to fear, this is my stability.
Childhood fears and abandoned dreams,
Lonely adventures and passion extremes,
Lies within me that power infinite,
Rock solid enthusiasm and positive dynamite,
There are legends, deep within my heart, untold
Daring deeds and steps taken so bold,
Nothing can take away my mind’s tranquility,
Here I am and this is my stability.
Judge me, my heart and my mind,
Try harder, if you still cannot find,
That trace of evil negativity,
The chains of inner captivity,
You will find none, for they are gone,
I had to battle myself and I won,
Still if you find any issues in my credibility,
Here I am, try shaking my stability.